They always say that it’s good to tel people how you feel, but it’s not as easy as they suggest. No matter how you feel about someone, there will be consequences when you step forward and tell them the truth.
I’ve hurt many people by letting them know how I felt. Even though I told them the whole truth, they got me wrong. And sometimes they weren’t where I was, so it got complicated. When I liked them more than they liked me, they suffered from someone who wants to be friend with them, while they didn’t want to. And sometimes it was the other way around.
In the case of hatred it was more difficult. To let someone know you’re interested in them was much easier than to show them how you hate them. And the reactions were always tragic. Some would become depressed and broken, and some would become your enemy and hate you back!
So, day by day I learned not to show what I felt, to let the people I like go away not knowing that someone like them secretly, and to hang out with the ones I hate, even when I can’t stand them. The problem solved? Obviously not. It got worse!
I thought that I could keep my likes and dislikes inside and never let the others find out how I felt, but it turned out to be an impossible mission. The eyes were the problem! No matter how hard I tried to hide my feelings, people could see what was going on through my eyes. And then, they started to judge me for hiding my feelings about them.
I still don’t know how to solve the problem, but I know I have to give up keeping everyone happy and satisfied, because if I don’t stop this, I will end up being hated by everyone.